Goodbye, trust issues. Hello, hope.

4.08.2012

I TURNED 22.

Man, do I feel like an old lady. I swear that I was 16 just the other day. And now I am slowly creeping towards 30. 30! Just thinking about it makes me want to stop time. Not to mention, my son is going to be FOUR in a couple months!! That makes me feel even older.

For my birthday, I was supposed to go on a date with a fine gentleman. I cannot even begin to tell you how excited I was for it. I mean, it has been SO long since I went on an actual date. Just the idea of it was mind blowing to me. But come that evening...he canceled on me.

Hello, trust issues. Automatically, I got kind of offensive and resistant to believe the reason that he gave me. I mean, I have had this happen before and the guys were lying. Guys lie. That is my experience, and I find myself constantly taking it out of guys who haven't given me a single reason not to trust them.

But this time, I got tired of it. I guess that is the best way to explain it. I realized if he is lying, he is lying. I cannot change that fact. If he isn't lying, great. He is a good guy and I will eventually go on a date with him. Getting all bent out of shape was not going to change anything, and not trusting somebody who is trustworthy is not the way to get what I want.

So today, we went on our date. I'm not going to say that it went fantastic or that anything will come from it. At this point, I'm not even sure. But it was a date. It was nice to know that there are nice guys out there who keep their word and are not liars. And even if this guy is not THE guy, it gives me some sort of hope. Which is something I haven't had for awhile.

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